Day 10, 30 Days of Sober Sunrises

10th day, July 8th, 5:51 am
Strong breeze, keeps flipping my journal over, lol.
Feels really good through, slightly cool and perfect for this balmy heat.
Thick clouds on the horizon, blue skies above, colors changing fast, pinks, corals, grays and blues. 

I've added in some yoga poses as soon as I get here, cat/cow, upward/downward facing dog, standing forward bends.. feels really good to stretch after the walk here, outside in front of the ocean, listening to the waves, helps my body come back to life!

I'm enjoying the quiet solitude, although not "quiet," it's human quiet, LOL. The waves are roaring this morning and the wind combined it's a comforting sound blanket for me.

I wrote some personal things about a friend who's going through a hard time right now. Life is hard, man. I feel for her.

[My daily set up, sunrise blanket, foldable stadium chair, journal, coffee, bag that holds journal and oracle deck] 

Some sadness this morning as I think about her being far away from me and wishing I was closer to pop in an cook a meal for her or run her kids places, just to give her a break.

I'm thoughtful and reflective and appreciative that my family is healthy and peaceful at this time.

A tissue flew out of my bag, and flew down the beach! I thought for a split second of just letting it go.. but I didn't, I jumped up and sprinted down the beach after it and caught it, yay me, lol.

6:27 and she is finally here, full, bright yellow light!

This project really is helping me connect more with myself, get more pleasure in my life, like feeling the breeze on my skin and the warm sun rising in the horizon. I'm more active here, walking here fist thing in the morning, and doing yoga stretches helps wake up my body, ignite my senses. I'm biking, running, walking, swimming. It's good energetically because I don't have the normal house/life stuff to manage. I'm not making a big deal out of dinners, we are eating what we want with minimal cooking. 

It's really a great, simple lifestyle, small house to take care of.. Less distractions, maybe a bit more boredom, but that's ok too.

I'm not feeling the need to go, go, go, do, do, do, which is exactly what I needed and didn't know it!

Feelings: Good, satisfied, happy, connected. 

Me being sober is the absolute best choice for me. I am so thankful and appreciative for it. It's not a punishment its the best gift I will probably ever give myself and this helps me hold on to it, protect it, cherish it for the gift it truly is! Sober sunrises RULE!

Oracle: For Kate ❤️ Spirit Guardian of Autumn, Letting Go
Surrender. All is well.
Letting go can heal the need to be in control, the stress of unfulfilled expectations, the anguish of needing to decide how things should be and the tension of wanting others to act in a particular way!

xo,

Angela Mascenik
www.angelamascenik.com/aliveaf
Stop Over-drinking and Start Living Podcast
Certified Stop Over-drinking Coach
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About the 30 days of Sober Sunrise Project:

These entries are dedicated to my 6th year of living an alcohol-free life. I have discovered that I love sunrises in my new life. So, I decided to do a writing project of documenting 30-days of sober sunrises over the Atlantic ocean. I rented a house within walking distance to Carolina Beach to make this happen. My family and a few friends will be rotating in and out during this time.

I have no agenda or goal about the outcome. I am curious and fascinated about what might happen.

But most importantly, I just happy that I gave myself the chance for this to even be possible. I am thankful for every person who has helped me get here, past and present, good and bad. They all played a role and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't the experiences in my life (even all the excessive drinking) before this very moment. Let's see what happens! 

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