Day 26, 30 Days of Sober Sunrises

Day 26, Wednesday, 6:00 am, July 24th

Alarm didn't go off, had a headache all night, and woke up at 5:25 am.

Got up, had coffee, saw lighting and just couldn't force myself to get down to the beach.

Then is started pouring down rain with thunder and lightning, LOL.

Sometimes the universe makes it easy for you.

I guess I was supposed to stay inside today and have an easy morning and let myself rest and get over this headache.

It's sideways raining now, the sky is grey with thin scattered clouds.

I love the sound of the rain on the roof.

I have one more day here.

This has been a sanctuary for my soul and I will never forget it.

So thankful I had this idea and I didn't ignore it or tell myself some story about it being to hard, complicated or expensive.

What happened during this project?

That wast he question I sought an answer to.

What happens for you see a sober sunrise over the ocean everyday?

Well, for me, I handled unexpected tragedy and grief by using this practice in the most loving, caring and supportive way I could imagine. 

It helped me heal, process, find gratitude, joy, beauty and more meaning to my human experience.

It allowed me the space to deeply connect with nature, the universe, my family, friends, clients and the sun.

It helped me find peace and calm every single day.

It immersed me in beauty, rich colors, soothing sounds, a full body immersion of the senses which feels so good and natural and connected.

I was very active here, I walked, ran, biked, and swam almost everyday.

I became a more alive, awake and aware human through this process.

I was more present with moments, observing, and appreciating them.

I lived more in the natural world versus the internet world and man, is there a notable difference in how I feel.

I watched less tv and read more real books.

I want to take this way of being home with me.

Less tv and internet, more nature and movement, more in the moment presence and appreciation, more ritual, more real connections.

The rain is pouring again, bringing me back this very present moment.

I feel satisfied, so so grateful, proud, a little melancholy about it being over tomorrow, sad thinking about the tragedy that happened 2 weeks ago, happy I have one more day and hopeful that this blog will inspire you to do something you've always wanted to do and to not give up on your dreams. 

Thunder claps and bellows in the sky with agreement!

The rising sun over the ocean was different every single day. Sometimes she was elusive, sometimes she shined so bright I couldn't look at her.

The sun rising and all the variations is what we can expect from our humanity.

We are different, one day to the next. What we experience in our everyday lives varies, sometimes colorful and beautiful and exciting and happy and bright. Sometimes, grey, cloudy, moody and dark. And then everything in between.

The sun isn't supposed to shine its glorious unfiltered light every single day for all the world to see and enjoy. And we aren't either. 

Accept your variations, allow, the ebb and flow, don't fight it and remember, it changes quickly, these moments are fleeting, so pause, take a minute to appreciate that you are alive and that you are capable of noticing how you feel in this moment and know that it will pass, whether it's a good moment or a bad moment, it will not stay, so appreciate it for what it is right now, breathe it all in, accept it and remember it.

Find gratitude that you GET to be here right now, some of us didn't make it through and I believe they would want you to appreciate your special moment, right here, right now.

Thank you for being here.

Oracle: Wise Woman of the Grove, Grace
You can relax and let go,  your path is guided. Kindly honor the truth of others even if you don't agree or if you know better. The creator knows the truth.

xo, 

Angela Mascenik
www.angelamascenik.com/aliveaf
Stop Over-drinking and Start Living Podcast
Certified Stop Over-drinking Coach
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About the 30 days of Sober Sunrise Project:

These entries are dedicated to my 6th year of living an alcohol-free life. I have discovered that I love sunrises in my new life. So, I decided to do a writing project of documenting 30-days of sober sunrises over the Atlantic ocean. I rented a house within walking distance to Carolina Beach to make this happen. My family and a few friends will be rotating in and out during this time.

I have no agenda or goal about the outcome. I am curious and fascinated about what might happen.

But most importantly, I just happy that I gave myself the chance for this to even be possible. I am thankful for every person who has helped me get here, past and present, good and bad. They all played a role and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't the experiences in my life (even all the excessive drinking) before this very moment. Let's see what happens! 

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